choices

typing this during computing lecture..kekeke

computing coursework just now was a disaster. Was frantically trying to get the program to run smoothly, but failed. Now there are only less than 100 minutes left for coursework and so many things to do...haix

Of course I could have spared myself this agony of having to suffer A-level stress in my first year and VJ and taken Econs instead (as if PW isn't infuriating enough), but this was my choice in my first day at VJ, this was my choice after the 1st 3 months to stick to Computing, and I just have to live with it.

One could look at this Coursework as something which directly affects your A level grade at the end of next year. Screw this up, and your dream grades are down the drain. However, to look at it from another way, what other subject (mebbe besides Art) allows you to think of the questions at home, try out ideal solutions, then come to school and regurgitate everything and get free marks? Of course, I SHOULD have done it, but I didn't, that's why i'm flopping coursework :p :p

Enough ramblings about coursework.

Question to ask: how many of you look back at your choices and wonder what could have been if you had done this and done that? Some people (i.e my friends) may argue that there is no point of being nostalgic about the past, once you made a choice , you go ahead with it and don't look back. However, is looking back really such a bad thing? Are we weak-minded people just because we do that? I dunno about you guys, but I think that at some point in time we have to do so. We look back on our choices and we learn about what kind of people we are. We look back and understand our life and why things (or maybe s***) happens. We look back and find better solutions to solve problems then...

Sometimes I look back to my sec school years and wonder about my academic path. I sometimes wonder why I chose VJ instead of going to Hwa Chong as my father would have liked. I sometimes wonder why I chose PCMC instead of taking Geog/History. I sometimes wonder what could have been. But I have this class, I have friends, I have iCOMP and wonder why i wonder too much.

-erjian