Wednesday... again

hey guys:)

it's Wednesday again! you know what that means...

but then again guys, it ain't that bad? we all got closer together. we all enjoyed the breeze. we got to move about a little more than the others. frankly speaking i don't really mind because it made me more awake? could stay up for like the rest of school... PW meeting was quite interesting too

re: Wilber,

yeah maybe you are right. maybe Mr Gi does not seem to express care and concern for us. probably is resorting to concrete punishment to deal with us so that we will change. true, it is not the best way. after all, we are all thinking responsible young adults, and should be given more liberty instead of being treated with autonomy. his words are also peppered with sarcasm, so it is kinda hard to tell. it ain't pleasant too... hmmmm

but then again, he is our CT tutor after all. some people don't have to earn respect. in fact, respect is due to them, because we respect the authority they have over us which is from all the way from above. there's a phrase from band of brothers that goes," you respect the rank, not the man."

as for sarcasm, we should not fight fire with fire? both parties will only get burnt. you don't return evil with evil anyway. if you want to look at it at a practical point of view, we will lose because he is with authority, while we are just students under him. i guess this comes to the point where we are to cultivate longsuffering. and if you look at it, we both benefit don't we? he does his job, and we become tougher, rugged people. i am sure we can all take this, can we? it ain't retribution or whatsoever, but go through it yeah? we will be stronger people in the end of it all. and when our strength fails, we got each other to back each other up yeah? that is how we become closer.

a few possibilities to his behaviour?

i guess Mr Gi does not want to see yet another CT group break up after we go into our working lives. he wants us to bond together for life, so that even after the JC life is over, we might still be reminded of being simple and nice when we think of each other, and not conform to the lives of the world. to help us bond, he in a way "sacrifices" his friendship with us for the sake of those between us, and becomes judge Dread.

the above is really ideal and close to naive thinking, but it is a possibility? maybe if we took it in this light, we just might be able to appreciate each other more, and possibly appreciate him too, even if he ain't like that.

another possibility is that when he was nice, he was being stepped on, climbed over and taken advantage on. probably previous classes he has taken charged of gave him a bad experience?

i guess we have to admit it. had he not stepped in, most of us would have probably skipped more tutorials then before, and we would probably do worse than we already are doing. that would not reflect too well on him? i don't remember hearing from him for the first 4 months at least, and those days we were like havocing. while that may have been allowed then, it may not be allowed now for our own good. having seen many students come and go, he might have forseen our hell in future, and thus stopped us before we get it for good.

it really is up to us to use this problem to our advantage? see it as an opportunity and not as a mess. injustice would be common in life too, so just get used to it? yeah...

hmm and you mentioned he was doing his job. ain't that a good thing? and not all the things go by feel or emotion. the fact that he is doing this shows that he cares for our future, when he doesn't need to. even if we cannot feel his concern for us, it ain't really a way to gauge, because emotions lie to a certain extent. probably we are too used to the care and concern we have received from family and friends, that we expect the same from our teacher, and that may be to a capacity beyond his ability.

don't you think that he humbled himself to have the done the 10 bodybuilders in front of us? he was just living to his standard, but it showed that he does care about equality and what not. even Zhou Chu didn't take the fire when she was later than him. oh yeah, you were not there! dang.

still, you are right. why not receive both care and concern and the punishment due, instead of just the latter? probably that is the way he is, and we just gotta accept it. just like our mamas and dads, siblings etc, we cannot really choose who they are to be to us. we cannot really expect too much from others, no matter how high in authority or how respectable or how important they are to us. after all, isn't all the expectation of various things that are causing all our complaints? probably we are already living pretty well, just that we want the best of things when we are already have the good, and not settle for less. then again, isn't it a privilege just to live life this well, being in the top 3% of the world? i guess excellence is only what we should require of ourselves, and not so of others, provided we know their capacity.

note: probably its excellence on his part that he is not letting any emotions or personal relationships he has with students get into the way of disciplining them and carrying out what he thinks is best for us.

we will get through this together ya? very thankful to 05S44 because of its people:)

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